2007-10-21
Insomnia
Insomnia has been something I've always had a problem with, especially in the last couple months. But lately, it has been particularly troubling. When I don't have enough activity in my life to fill a normal day, being awake for 20 hours is brutal. I don't really need more time to think over my life, to worry about all the choices and changes I've had to make lately. I don't need time to lay awake in bed and replay all the mistakes I've made over and over and retrace how they have led me to where I am today. I really don't need to think about what I missing in my life and wonder if I'm falling behind, socially, somehow. (Also, here's a tip: when you are unemployed, single, and home alone on Saturday night, DO NOT start looking up classmates on myspace. You will only discover that they either married with children, finishing up medical school, or have ended up much, much more attractive than you.)
The hard thing is that I know my life will be getting much more complicated soon. Once the spring class schedule comes out I will finally be able to figure out what hours I will have available to work and find a job accordingly. And then there will be the fun of going to school full time while trying to work as many hours as I need to cover expenses.
And this entry is totally rambling and makes no sense because I am so very tired.
corin82 at 2:15 a.m.