2006-10-04
Girl gone wild.
The other night MC Chris, a white nerd rapper who sings about drinking cough syrup, Star Wars characters, and playing video games, had a show at a local brewery here, so I and all my friends who are also from Redding (all three of them)went to the show. I realized that while we all grew up in the same town and pretty much had the same experiences, there was a decisive gap in our personalities. While Zack and I preferred to stand toward the back of the room and mock everyone else, J and the Moomie decided to get rip-roaring drunk and live it up. Unfortunately, "living it up" to J means getting into a girl fight in the middle of the show, which stopped the performance dead, and getting kicked out of the bar.
I would say that because I'm getting older I no longer find this stuff fun, but to be honest, I've never been the kind of girl to get wasted and make an ass of myself in public. I am way to self-conscious for that kind of behavior. In the end, it just really irritated me; not only because it was embarrassing or because I ended up missing a good portion of the show because I had to leave to make sure that J was alright, but also because I was talking to a really cute nerdy guy who I think might have actually been into me as well and any shot I may have had was shot thanks to my stupid drunk friends. (Oh, who am I kidding? Chances are he probably was just talking to me to get closer to J, since she is cute and I am not.) I'm just getting really tired of becoming my friends' babysitter. Of course I could just stop worrying about them when they decide to get wasted and let them go off on their own, but I just don't have that kind of personality. I have this nasty habit of being painfully loyal to people, even when they don't really deserve it. I guess I either need to learn to relax or find some new friends.
corin82 at 11:22 p.m.