2006-06-19
The Off Switch
Have you ever noticed that when your computer gets tangled up in some sort of error, it offers to go into a safe mode? Sort of a bare necessities state, where it will keep just the most basic of functions going, but will shut down the superfluous programs in order to save the whole? My brain has that.
I noticed it while I was in Redding. Specifically, when I'm around my family. I don't think it was my family specifically as much as the fact that I was never alone for three whole days, which is quite a change from my everyday life, but I've noticed that after awhile something in my brain just decides that, in order to prevent total meltdown, certain things have to stop. Things like listening to other people. Or caring about what they are saying. Or talking.
Not that I go mute, I just....don't want to talk anymore. For whatever reason I go into a socially catatonic mode and I just don't want to be involved anymore, which can be awkward in certain situations. Situations like, say, breakfast with most of my extended family.
The moral of the story? Some members of my family probably think I'm on drugs. And my parent's still think I'm weird.
By the way, if you ever feel the need to watch a truly stunning piece of cinematic cheese, might I recommend Michael Landon's semi-autobiographical work Sam's Son? I don't mean to ruin it for anyone, but the climactic end to the story deals with how Michael Landon's hair gave him strength. His hair. Gave him strength. And much like Landon's own locks, the film is glorious in a grotesque way. (Recommended refreshments: anything with alcohol.)
corin82 at 11:15 p.m.